I've been quite irresponsible and lazy to update "you" with
so many things i've been wanting to share for the past
several days, and so despite the lack of time that I allow
myself to deal, I'll have to mention these random things that
I thought of and took time out of my life:
ANC became an instant favorite news channel. it was
either late last week or early this week that i saw a
documentary featuring one, and perhaps the only "living"
forensic pathologist in the philippines. yep, the police and
some know-it-all group can easily say that somebody died
because of several gun shots, but forensic pathology can
identify which of the several gun shots caused the fatality.
it's just pathetic that at this lonely time and place of a
country when and where people can die of anything
without necessary justice all the time, that we do not have a
system for this. there's more secret deaths than fully
understanding JUSTICE in its full sense. it's just plain
pathetic.
i met a very interesting person at work, matter-of-factly
speaking a company vendor with whom i had a meeting
last tuesday. it's remarkable that our 2nd meeting was
quite interesting in that i felt comfortable at an instant...for
some reason. though i knew that that level of casual
conversation may not be the best condition we should be
in, i made sure that we maintain the professionalism
needed to deliver for the job to be done. I don't know, it
just happened, and it's such a wonder how things like that
happen. she practically shared with me the most delicate
parts of her life which by the way are reasonably recent,
and it caused me to share a bit of myself. well, maybe not
a bit, but if you've been in such kind of chemistry with
practically a stranger, you'll know what i mean. but there,
one of my goals for the year accomplished: have a nice/
interesting conversation with a stranger.
a boy from ateneo who's in grade 4 passed away
yesterday. i just heard about it last night. he was crossing
the streets of ateneo (within the compounds of the school)
with his yaya, when they got hit by a car, owned by a mom
who was to pick up her son. it's just sad, unfortunate
events. then tonight i learned about an employee from
DOC (Pasay) who got mugged and shot to death. he had 2
kids as i heard. tragic stories hit our lives everyday, and
what do we got but the choice to move on until ours is over.
with what happened to the employee i mentioned, it led us
to share our own experiences, until we got to the point of
talking about funny stuff on our own encounters with
mugging. i got pinned down by God knows how many
they were when i was still a full-time commuter along
Pasay-EDSA MRT, some other peers like Mags had it in a
cab, some had their cellphones and bags snatched, and
some had similar experiences when they were just kids. i
recalled an instance when i was a first year high school
student. i wore a new scarlet cap, taken from a
balikbayan box sent by relatives from canada. can't
really remember what was printed on it, but i thought it was
really cool. while i was not really fond of wearing caps,
my schoolmates were obsessed with it, not to mention that it
was a time when peers drooled over nice stuff and asked if
they could arbor it. so i decided that same morning when i
first saw the cap, to wear it to school. i just got off the jeep,
i put on the cap and walked chin up hoping to impress
people once i get inside the campus. but no more than 2
seconds passed when somebody in a bicycle snapped it
and took it away with him. i can vividly recall and can
practically see myself standing there by the sidewalk,
stunned and motionless, not having any bit of a clue what
the heck just happened. of course a natural course of
human nature is to come back to yourself (regardless how
much time it took) and start accepting facts, like, your
brand new cap which still "smelled" imported...was gone
forever. how naive i was then. i wonder how i could have
reacted if it were to happen to me now. you should've seen
me laugh like crazy.
it was ash wednesday yesterday, Feb 25, and i'm driven to
start reconciling myself with what i really want and
transcend just a little bit more. i hope i can survive a
meatless 40 days, though i can't really commit yet to a
smoke-less and coffee-less lifestyle. but hey, if there's
trying, there's hope. "hope is a beautiful thing, and
beautiful things never die."
so there, so far so good, out of my 100 list of things to do this
year while i'm alive, and i'm still lacking about 20 more i
haven't decided on, i've managed to accomplish 3 nice
things: a wi-fi router, a nice conversation with a stranger,
and a laugh so hard it made me cry...to spite myself.
