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::my past life diagnosis:: You were female in your last earthly incarnation. You were born somewhere in the territory of modern Sumatra around the year 1675. Your profession was that of a seaman, cook or carpenter. Your brief psychological profile in your past life:As a natural talent in psychology, you knew how to use your opportunities. Cold-blooded and calm in any situation.The lesson that your last past life brought to your present incarnation:The timid, lonely and self-confident people are everywhere, and your task is to overcome these tendencies in yourself and then to help other people.






























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Saturday, October 02, 2004  
funny completely to something look back on memory that your refreshes.

Life is anything but stagnant, so why should you be?

i've read in a TIME magazine a Sony videocam ad about "Nirvana", and it's so enticingly profound that if you're stupid, or profound enough to be carried away, you'd be on your way to the center to grab your own unit in your pyjamas... just to look for your nirvana.

It quotes that Nirvana is "that sense of 'completion' that we find at the end of our search. I'm content in just knowing it exists." In another issue, (not that I was expecting a series) was another quote, "Seeking nirvana - find it in unexpected places. Seek it in faces of people you meet. Search for it in nature, in time, or in what you do. Nirvana is somewhere we all want to get to and many are the ways. How are you getting there?"

This time of my life must be, it seems to me, one of the millions of peaks of my search through random things and events and places and nothingness, my own nirvana. Nirvana nirvana nirvana nirvana nirvana nirvana nirvana nirvana nirvana nirvana nirvana nirvana. How hard would it have to be if it were so simple. Just like any word, if pronounced repetitively, it gradually loses its meaning, until it becomes just a WORD. Nothing else. A combination of letters and spaces. But would you really have to work for it? If you don't struggle or at least try, will it ever come along?

Is it death that punctuates the end of that search? Is death what we are searching for? If not death, then when we find our own nirvanas (whatever it may be, or if we ever find it; can we die without at least knowing?!) without having to die yet, what happens after that? Will it be eternal (until death) happiness, or shall it be called NIRVANA, and then we could just wait till the moment we die, which could also mean boredom, because there'd be no more suffering? And if ever there would be some more suffering, it wouldn't matter because we've seen and experienced what we came to live here for? Will we know if we found our Nirvana?

What kind of mind is this? Full and empty. For all I know and care for, it's our own religion and FAITH that could answer all of this, and i'm aware of that. Faith, are you bought nowadays?

Saturday, October 02, 2004

 
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